
Disclaimer : this is my story, not intended to diagnose or suggest you go this direction in caring for your body.
My words are like I talk and my mind runs faster than my words sometimes so know its just real!
I also do not believe in labeling things on or about my body that I do not want so please read between the lines.
For a couple years I have had a light brown spot like on my scalp that was flat to my head and not overly big but I noticed it. In the past I have used Clove and Frankincense with great success with spots. But I had another skin irritation on my face and I was using Helichrysum daily with success so while I was applying this oil to my face I would apply it on that spot as well.
Life had taken my time more than usual and I neglected my regular routine for my skin care. Then one day I notice the spot on my scalp had extended with a few black spots which it had not had before. Then with each passing day it continued on this rapid growth up out and all around with black spots increasing very quickly. I noticed!!!
My hair dresser said get that looked at it has black spots and has ragged edges which are not favorable signs.
I then contacted my personal coach who I have had for 3 years. Love her, everybody needs a coach. I shared about this spot as well as some really disgusting dreams I had for months which would give me the thought that my body was screaming out on toxic overload. She confirmed my thoughts on toxic overload but her next words were a game changer for me.
She said.. Is it time to give yourself permission to stop the suffering! You have been used all your life and is it time to take yourself back.
WOW! Yes that is what had been happening. Being abused for several years in my childhood you do feel like you don't have any say. Then when you get old enough to have a say it usually will come out in anger as your still not really sure you don't deserved to be treated like that because you have been programmed the rug mat for so long. Then if you do stand up for yourself you wonder will this ruin my change for being loved. Its a twisted cycle which I have untwisted but that's another story in itself.
So I started on this new journey. First I did get mad. Then quickly I turned that and wrote down all the negative things I didn't like about my body and self and on another page I wrote all the opposite to all the negative. Then I burnt the negative paper. I started writing down that I was thankful that I loved myself and my body and I spoke and wrote to myself all the wonderful things about it. And how thankful I was for my clear skin and etc. Then I sent love to people that were bothering me... This was another game changer.. and when I did that THINGS started to happen. By the way I still do this exercise.
I then decided to go to a Dr. that knew me well and I trusted. He suggested that I get it off quickly as ragged edges and black spots inside of it was not a good sign. Hummm I thought! In the meantime I had been listening to Dr. Joe Dispenza, author of Your are the Placebo. WHOA what a book and talk about a story, his personal story is AMAZING!! So his book and the book Love, Medicine and Miracles which is about people who have healed themselves from diseases first by loving themselves and pretty much giving their selves permission to stop the internal emotional suffering. All this was going over and over in my mind. So in my mind I am thinking, I can do this. I believe the body heeds to what your thinking and feeling. So I needed to change something's... So I did just that....
I started doing some things for myself setting some healthy boundaries along with daily journaling about the love I have for myself, how happy and thankful for that. Now I really didn't feel the love at first for myself but the more I wrote it and said it I started to feel it then act it. ( that is KEY) Send love to the people that were bothering me and each day the internal pressure started to lift. I was taking my life back!! I also decided to use several of my favorite products from Nature Sunshine quality line which included: Black ointment, clove, frankincense, lavender, helichrysum essential oils and the one I used most and still do is... Silver Shield. I used the other products when I felt the need ( I believe in letting the body tell you what it needs if you know how to listen to it ) but regularly I use the Silver Shield and I give a lot of credit to that little tube.
The pictures above, well sorry I tried to take them myself and I tried to put them in the right order but as you see I have them backwards. The far right picture was March 6th, the middle picture was March 10th and the first picture was taken March 27th. All gone now!! Hurray!!
Any questions please feel free to contact me. cindy@cindycappel.com
Happy Health to you my friend,
Cindy